This past week has been very emotionally draining. I’ve been stressing over finances, teacher applications, and busy getting things ready for my trip. I am leaving Sunday for a 7 day cruise to Bermuda with my parents and cousin/aunt.  J will be staying here for a week while I’m gone to take care of my dog, Izzie, and cat, Bella. I’ve been stressing, trying to get my house in some sort of order, before he does. He says he does not care, but like I’ve said before, he’s neat and organized, and I’m NOT. So between the teacher job situation and the house I’ve been non stopped stressed out.

Don’t get me wrong I am excited about my trip and hoping it will clear my mind and leave me feeling rejuvenated, but at the same time I know I’m going to miss J like CRAZY. We are used to not seeing each other for days straight, but this will be different, because we can’t just call each other when we want, since I’ll be on a cruise ship with insane $$$$ cell phone charges.

To make matters worse I’ve been missing him a lot this week especially knowing that I would only get to see him Friday during the day and late Saturday night. He’s working Saturday and then we both have separate parties to go to Saturday night. So our time together would be pretty short and I would only get to spend 1 night together before leaving for a week.

So yesterday I was feeling really down because it was Thursday and he normally spends the night when he has Friday off. But this Thursday  he wanted to get chores done and pack his things since he would be staying at my place for a week. We still planned to spend Friday together as our last big hurrah before my bon voyage.

Last night I was sitting at my mom’s kitchen table and stressing over a teacher application’s questions, trying to sound off my ideas to her, when my cell phone rang. I was excited to see it was J. We talked for a few minutes and he told he had tried calling my house but I wasn’t home. I told him I was at my mom’s finishing up my application but heading home soon. He said he had finished up his chores and was looking forward to seeing me tomorrow. Hearing his voice made me happy but at the same time I missed him even more and wished I could see him right then.  My mom looked at me and said, “I wonder if he is at your house now? While I loved the thought of that, I told her, no way, he told me he was busy and I brushed it off. I didn’t want to get my hopes up either, so I told myself, NO WAY, but secretly wished he was.

Well, I have to admit, “mom’s are right most of the time”. I was talking to J on my way home and as I turned the corner I was looking at my driveway and sure enough there was a car in my driveway. It was J!!!!! I practically jumped into his arms and hugged him SO tight, squealing the whole time with excitement. I didn’t care if I woke the whole neighborhood up. He said he missed me like crazy and couldn’t stand being apart even one more day, so he wanted to see me. He had planned the surprise knowing it would make me very happy. It turns out that when he called me the first time he was already on his way to my house.  This is just one of the many reasons why I love J.
There have been so many times in my life I have wished for things like this, but so often are my wishes destroyed by reality. Well this time reality was better than my dreams. J had come to be with me. We had a relaxing night together and I got my wish. I got to fall asleep in my man’s arms.

Today we spent the day doing things together as planned. We had planned to spend part of the day with my dog, Izzie because it was her 4th birthday. Our plans for a park trip were foiled by crappy weather, but we still made the best of it. We took Izzie for her first “frosty paw.” Just being with him today especially at the ice cream place and seeing him with my baby girl, I knew this is a guy I want in my life for a VERY LONG time. Everything just feels so natural with J.

When saying goodbye tonight I held on extra tight and thanked him again for surprising me. He looked at me and said, “you know you’re deeply in love when you miss someone so much and don’t want to spend another day apart from them.” I feel the exact same way and hate being apart from him. I know this week, while I’m thousands of miles away from him it will be extremely hard, but also a true testament to our love for one another.

Ironically before he left we watched “Hall Pass”. J told me he would never need a hall pass. I wouldn’t either. In my past I’ve been tempted, sneaked a peak or wondered, “what if I had made a different choice.” However with J, I can honestly say it is different. I trust him 100 precent even with all of my hurt in the past.  J and I have hit some rocky points but we’ve gotten through it. He even brought this up as we were saying goodbye. He mentioned we definitely hit some turbulence but we’ve gotten past it and he thinks that we will get through anything together.

There was a line from “Hall Pass” about knowing when you want that person to be your husband/wife. Well I know I can say without a doubt I hope J will be my future husband. I know I am madly, truly, and deeply in love. It has only been a short 4 months, but like he said, “you know you’re in love when you can’t stand being apart for even more than a day.” Eventually J will be staying permanently. (We are thinking sometime in the fall). I will get to wake up and fall asleep in his arms everyday. However until that time comes we will have to spend days at a time apart, but I know we will get through it. J is quite something special, and I thank my lucky stars, to be given an opportunity to fall in love again